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supercool-here · 3 years ago

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NO ONE NEEDS ANOTHER REVIEW OF HOT GIMMICK: GIRL MEETS BOY (or whatever) BUT I NEED TO WRITE MY OWN REVIEW OF THE WHOLE THING

So I hear it's and adaptation of a manga, Idk about the manga, I just know about the effing movie: some hate it, some don't understand what the heck happened, some hate themselves for watching it, and let me tell you, I am all of the previous ones, except I also really love it (not just for how effing beautifully and uniquely the cinematography is) but because it's so effing close to reality, the thing is so close to the truth that it's even cringy and tortuous. It was a ride. With lots of stages. And I'd say you need to be pretty mature to get it (as a whole)

Do I think everything about the movie is right? No. Do I love it? Yes. Why?

We are given this teenage girl, Hatsumi, who is very unconfident, naive, and has absolutely no self esteem. Now, we get three boys: the neighbor with cringy hair, Tachibana, (who obviously likes her but won't be direct and instead goes on annoying her and manipulating her to be his servant (?), he's jealous, he keeps telling her she's his (I know, wtf) and dumb, stupid, idiot (I know, WTF) and manipulates her to kiss him (I know, ew). Then we have this other neighbor with orange hair, who's name I forgot, a famous boy who used to live in the same complex as her and was her childhood friend (until he became famous and left, apparently) he goes back and starts hitting on her, NOW, from the beginning it was pretty obvious (at least to me) that he was the kind of boy who sees naive girls like her and seduces her very easily with some compliments and shit like that, which happens of course. Then we have the big brother, the cutest in my opinion, who's name I also forgot, NOW there was something about the brother being cute and protective that made me consider the possibility of him being another love interest, BUT WTF I DIDN'T MEAN IT and IT HAPPENED wtf. And we also have a very absent mom and a little sister (Akane) who had early sexual intercourse with a boy who wasn't that into her (she ducking deserved better, btw, I mean that should've gotten fixed)

Is any of those boys "perfect"? NO, absolutely no. If you're trying to find out her ideal man following the formula of looking for the most flawless guy (or the first guy to be introduced hehe) you're gonna fail, FIRST because each of them is greatly flawed or has huge cons (Tachibana is a toxic bitch who insults and molests Hatsumi in the beginning, dude with orange hair was literally taking advantage of her, manipulating her for her naiveness and lack of self confidence and self esteem, out something in her drink and after his plan got interrupted by her brother, he video calls her and lures her into showing herself naked, which he of course records cause he wanted revenge for something that she wasn't even involved in, and her big brother turns out to be adopted but that's doesn't change shit y'all they still grew up as siblings like never in a million years should anything happen between the two of them), so yeaj they're all flawed and super inconvenient. BUT THEN that's what it is about, and here is why I loved the movie, in spite of how painful, cringy, frustrating and scary it was:

Hatsumi got an ACTUAL character arc, not just like boohoo she got hurt now she won't trust anybody and she'll be a though girl, NA-AH, after orange-hair dude did what he did, she gets hurt but she also heals (not thanks to the mom btw, but thanks to Tachibana and maybe her brother), and she started to stand up for herself, she would tell Tachibana to shut up and stop calling her idiot (or whatever baka actually means), she started to value her body, and she was in the process of forgiving orange-hair dude while still staying away from him cause gurl he didn't actually care about you. She understood there were people who wouldn't value her and she would need to be the one defending her value. With Tachibana and their relationship, not only does she grow (cause she got more confidence and self esteem after the hope and trust she finds in him) he changes too, he was always kind of a good dude but pretty toxic, but then he's just impulsive (not saying that's good though), let's say he changes in terms of how he treated her. And with her brother, they get to sort out the mess that was going on there, they didn't keep anything to themselves, they both found peace in being siblings and that's healthy (although I do not agree with him kissing her nor with her literally laying on his bed, but in the end he didn't loose control, he did what was right (almost always).

It was a very complex movie, but it was quite simple as well, and I'm happy with the end, although some of the things Tachibana and Hatsumi say are quite cringy, it's a good end. Both Tachibana and Hatsumi know they're not perfect, but Tachibana knows Hatsumi has potential and Hatsumi knows Tachibana is good, they trust each other and are willing to stay together no matter how imperfect things are, WHICH IS AWESOME cause we are told things should be perfect right away, and that's not how things work, you gotta grow together, have faith I each other, accept each other's flaws and bring them closer to their best version, not everyone can commit to that, not everyone can commit to a lifetime of growing and learning and healing and embracing, and these teens did. Also the way they both are enormously conscious they want to belong to each other and own each other at the same time is just beautiful cause that's what love is, belonging to someone and guarding that same someone at the same time, not as a possession, but as a treasure. Wtf is hecking beautiful, and people hate it because there's ugly, complicated things about it, but reality is shaped with ugly and complicated things too, that's why this movie is great.

There's many quotes I loved, maybe I'll rewatch it someday and I'll make a follow up to this review and I'll add screen caps of my favorite quotes/shots. It's just so effing beautiful, this film makes want to meet the creators and give em a thousand kisses followed by a thousand slaps on their faces

I just never understood how the worst character of all (orange-hair dude) turned out to have actually been interested in Hatsumi and not just taking revenge, like wuuuut?

And I do believe Akane deserved much better.

The thing about the movie is that there's characters with flaws much bigger than we can take, and there's people getting hurt and making mistakes but that didn't write the end of their stories: Hatsumi grew up (which we all knew she needed to) Tachibana was an arrogant dude but he treasured Hatsumi (I never really liked Tachibana that much to be honest, but at some point I was ok with him), and her brother did the right thing. And I'm still confused about orange-hair dude but at least Hatsumi didn't run to his arms ever again

Was the movie confusing? It can be confusing if you don't follow what's goin on while processing things in your head. That's a great reason to not watch this if you're a teenager.

And of course I hated the lack of adults in the film, they all needed parents to talk to, protection, a home to go to.

Don't come at me with "but the manga yada yada", Idk about the manga, perhaps there where way worse things and the movie sugar coated things, I don't need that bullshit, if the manga has crazier crap that's mot my business.

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tired-elf-witch · 3 years ago

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Ahhh 🥰🥰🥰 And I will say it again, it's a pleasure for me. Lol thanks, I love your url too!

And don't threaten me with a good time! 👁👄👁 Speaking about you having some ideas for make this whole situation even more twisted, with a possessive Lucius.

Oh well, that's normal but it's even a nice and satisfying thing when all is builded! There's some movies that I love about this concept of apparently flawless families, who actually hide the darkest secrets. It's interesting to read and write. And you're doing it perfectly!

By the way I can easily imagine Lucius as a secretly cruel man in the sheets, enjoying the others' pain, humiliation and ruin. I mean, dude, he is a control and power freak after all, so why not? There is this interesting conflict of Lucius who on the one hand enjoys hurting his own son and on the other hand tries to make him succubus and consenting.

I take this opportunity for a question: you said Draco is bisexual in your story, even he prefers men and his parents knew it. I read here that you think that Lucius is actually "glad" to know it in part but acted like a good father all the time.

I wonder, what if other than that Draco were have been someone who is actually turned on by violence, a masochist? And told it to his father, since he trusted him? Do you think Lucius would have thought badly of him because he sees him as his "pure son" or would have reacted differently?

took me a bit to get to respond, but here i am :P the bustle of the new year is already taking its toll on me 😵i caught the flu and i am still healing from it, ha! hope my answer makes sense, and hope youre faring well :)

lucius is ABSOLUTELY a sadist in this fic btw!! 100%. having been raised to see himself as above others he, by default, had ended up taking up quite a few sadistic tendencies, many that translated into his sex life as well.

and your questions, under the keep reading !

going to go on a bit of a tangent here bc i have this whole thing i have thought about the last few days since you sent your ask and read it. the actual idea of it in 'A Traitor Knows Best' is a bit different from what you have imagined, and ill get into that in a bit, after i write out what i have in mind for your scenario.

and... man that is incredible and has so many possibilities, wow! i think, had draco shared such a secret to his father (and, very very awkwardly mind you, since he wasnt sure how much he should share and how proper it would be to talk about it, since pure blooded views on sexuality are more repressed, ya know?) his father would have mixed reactions.

he would, most definitely, revel in knowing this bit of information- his mind would go wild at knowing such a little, but important, fact about his son. not only would his attraction flare up even more(i mean, this idea of "it was meant to be" would take its roots into his mind, and also just the fact that they complete each other, with lucius being a sadist and draco a masochist), but his self control would start wearing even more thin, and could be a direct influence on it snapping as well.

but, of course, there would be some deep seated conflict inside of him as well. youve got the pure-blooded elitism and repression being disgusted that draco would share such a vital part of his sex life- as it is, this kind of information is to be shared with your lover, not your parents. the way that lucius was open about being a sadist with his wife(and who enjoyed it very much). and theres also the fatherly part of him that, in a way, is sad to find out about it. his son is growing up and maturing just before his very eyes!

however, the very same reminder of him maturing also just fuels his desire more. hes growing up, maturing, and even figuring himself out and, as such, is perfect "for the taking", if you get what i mean ;)

i would love to also go into what i have envisioned for the fic- but there are some things that i will keep to myself and not go into to keep for later into it. but, i will share some information that might fuel your interest, but are a bit spoiler-y imo:

draco was a virgin, and very inexperienced other than some crushes and some "relationships" that went as far as hand holding only. hes formal when it comes to relationships, after all, and wants to take it the "gentleman route", as his mother made sure to raise him into a gentleman lmao.

and, draco would have turned out a sadist himself, had his father not started abusing him. but, as it is, with the current point we are in the fic draco isnt sure about his own desires anymore, so we will see how his... "self exploration" that has been heavily tainted by his father goes!

have a good one <3

#owaaa hope this isnt just incoherent rambling im on like 5 painkillers now HAHA #a traitor knows best /#tj gets asked qs /#thesexythighsofthebatman

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2ndblogg · 4 years ago

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Hey! Just read your hot take on novel!wangxian and I absolutely agree. I'm gonna have to say here that I believe it boils down to the fetishization of homosexual men in a lot of the fandom culture that surrounds mlm shipping, as you said it's a space for a lot of women to experiment with their desires and whatnot, but I think therein lies the breaking points between reading novel!wangxian as a good, healthy relationship vs. reading it as a very flawed and toxic one. As an LGBT person, reading the way the author dealt with their relationship made me extremely uncomfortable, it just really feels like something that is written by someone who is more invested in using her queer characters for satisfying her and her reader's own pleasure than a well-built, strong relationship between two characters. Not to take away from the novel in some other aspects, I believe that novel!wwx is a much better, much more nuanced character than what he is in cql, but when it comes to wangxian, I think the intentions are very different for each of them. To each their own, I guess, but I do find it very troubling that some people in the fandom have a really hard time admitting that novel wangxian is not even remotely healthy.

Absolutely.

And can I just say how glad it makes me to see that not everyone is praising this book for it’s lgbt representation...

But I guess that’s also why I just occasionally feel the need to scream my frustrations into the void or try to make sense of the novel.

And why I try to be understanding and accepting of people’s opinion of the novel and not take it ‘personally’ (in the sense of sitting there thinking “holy shit this is how they view ME, this is what they think of ME” etc).

I was in fandoms back when they were really a place dominated by straight (homophobic) women and realism or lgbt representation wasn’t on anyone’s mind (and the occasional dude butting in to say that’s not how sex works or bottoming is experienced was ignored or told to get out). I experienced this change to fandoms being more of a lgbt space, of people becoming aware that media can shape your views of groups of people, of people becoming aware of their fetishizing of fictional gays vs. their prejudice against real life lgbt people etc.

And tbh MXTX just writes like one of those, she writes wangxian like everyone wrote their gay relationships around 2005 and earlier; clear power imbalance, clear roles and attributes that are divided into ‘manly’ and ‘feminine’, certain physical attributes (like the female self insert character aka the bottom being pretty and slight and weaker and shorter), men/the penetrating partner can’t really be raped so anything the woman/bottom tries isn’t really ‘bad’, the male love interest is forceful and self centered but ONLY because he’s so in love and since he’s emotionally stunted he has to express that through sex, men/tops NEED sex and it’s rude/mean to deny them that, the girl/bottom isn’t THAT horny or in charge of their own sexuality but wants to please their partner and what they really get out of it is the emotional aspect, decisions need to be made for them because the dude/top just knows better, the girl/bottom is childish and flirty and the guy/top suffers through it until he finally snaps and shows the girl/bottom who'sboss etc etc. (honestly homophobia and misogyny is so tightly knit in this kind of fiction, if it wasn’t so frustrating it would be very interesting).

Tbh I disagree with novel!wwx being more nuanced (despite a lot of ppl whose opinions I really respect also feeling this way), because I simply cannot seperate him from the wangxian relationship. All I see are tropes and stereotypes applied to make him ‘work’ in the context of the wangxian relationship instead of an actual personality...

To me, in CQL WWX is clearly the main character and you love his interactions with LWJ and want more of them and value them, wheras in the novel most of the time WWX plays second fiddle even when a scene should technically be about him and LWJ’s presence is incredibly suffocating, because he’s always being controlling or at the very least influencing WWX.

I also don’t feel like WWX has much of a character arc/growth. We’re essentially told he had one but the only thing that really actually changes is him hating himself a bit more and letting LWJ smash..., and I guess: he’s less independent than ever, he’s more isolated that ever...

I’ve called novel!wangxian a relationship between an abuser and his victim, because you can find evidence of that in the text. Not because I think the author wanted to portray an unhealthy gay relationship. Like you said, she was fetishizing and wrote for a similar crowd. But to me that ‘realization’ helped...I still don’t see how people can call it a masterpiece but I can at least understand hyping something you like up...

And like, badly written gay relationship or not; gay/straight,man/women, I see how people can find it hot. Exploring your sexuality through fictional characters isn’t necessarily a strictly straight girl phenomena. I probably have read fic that was exactly like this, I can’t judge anyone for it. But no one prints out the last PWP they read and goes, “this is ideal lgbt representation and nothing will ever be this good, the fact that it includes rape makes it so realistic” like????

(Is that part or an effect of the woke and purety culture? you can’t say ‘i like this book but it has flaws’ or ‘i’ve enjoyed this but it’s not up the feminism or lgbt acceptance that i preach/live’ so you have to pretend it’s flawless?)

And like, I do think novel!wangxian is a nightmare when it comes to lgbt representation and I do believe this is largely due to a cishet woman writing about gay men and fetishizing them (the fact that a lot of peoples arguments why novel!wangxian ‘is better’ boils down to ‘there’s kissing and sex’ is also pretty telling). And I am frightend and worried by some peoples response to it.

But is it really fair to see it as just that? It’s a problem sure, but that same thing happens in straight media (which I am admittedly not well versed in). Stephanie Meyer didn’t set out to write Edward Cullen to be a creep and non of the teenage girls that went crazy over him viewed it as such...Reylo fans (aside from some of them proclaiming Finn to be the real villain and saying it’s racist and misogynistic to not find Kylo Ren hot) found a way to view him threatening her as romantic and sexy, Loki fans that didn’t ship him with Thor usually fell into the camp of “he would be a perfect boyfriend” or “what if this OFC was his slave and he raped her everyday <3″... like ignoring/glorifying/romanticizing behaviours or exploring what kinks you might have through the safety of fictional characters and fictional settings isn’t JUST happening when it comes to ‘the gays’...

And not just specifically in fandom spaces either, a lot of ‘romantic’ movies include inappropriate touching, the boy/guy knowing better than the girl what she wants etc. And I absolutely do believe that that’s something that normalized these things for a lot of young girls and guys (I don’t want to get into this too much, I’ve really seen a change in the past few years, but before that it was pretty common for young boys to believe they need to keep pursuing and pressuring a girl that has said no, girls truly thought boys could die of blue balls, girls thought it was their duty as good girlfriends to let their boyfriends fuck them even when they weren’t in the mood, that they couldn’t talk about what they want in bed or what they don’t find enjoyable because ‘sex is for boys and girls get a relationship in exchange’ etc.).

And in much the same way movies have only relatively recently begun being called out for that, it’s also still pretty recently that they’re being called out for having their one queer coded character be a pedophile and a murder or whatever...Like, society as a whole becoming aware of these issues.

But do authors that publish their work with a specific target audience in mind have a responsibility to think about the effect it might have on them? (And I can already hear loud screams of ‘no way, it’s not your fault if your audience isn’t smart enough to understand that this bad thing is bad’, but I actually do believe in a way they do. That doesn’t mean you can’t or shouldn’t write whatever you want, just maybe take a look at HOW you bring your point across. (We do KNOW people are influenced by what propaganda they’re consistantly fed. I mean, you wouldn’t write a pro-drugs childrens book...) )

What if the author isn’t aware of their bias and prejudices? Or their target audience isn’t their actual audience?

And do we, society and media, judge female and male authors differently when it comes to romance and sex in fiction? (The answer is yes btw) But also, where do we draw the line at calling something ‘badly written’ and calling it toxic? Can it be both? As I’ve said before, a lot of people claim that only the physical intimacy scenes of novel!wangxian are bad, because they’re badly written and OOC, some say the book as amazingly written and only the wangxian relationship is bad because the author doesn’t know how to write gay men. In my ‘hot take’ I essentially said that’s not necessarily bad writing so much as it’s simply an (okay, unintentional) toxic relationship. And would this relationship still come across as toxic (or badly written, whichever you want) if we didn’t know the author to be a cishet woman? Or if a gay man had written it? (my personal, eloquent answer for this is: yes, but differently.)

Which was really all just a rambly way to get to my point of: it’s not just fetishizing of gay men, it’s also the homophobia and self-inserting in a safe situation.

You can literally replace WWX in the novel with a female character and it wouldn’t change a thing. The author takes such an effort into building up this power imbalance in every aspect of their life that if WWX were a heroine nothing would change in this (sexist/ancient society) setting.

(And clearly this is something that appeals to people if you look at the amount of female!WWX fics...)

Not even the sex scenes. There are maybe two allusions in all of them combined that WWX might also have a dick but like, you can’t be sure and it sure as hell doesn’t need stimulation.

(and again, that could be written as a kink...but it’s just not.)

CQL is a gay love story. MDZS at it’s core is none of that.

But I also very much agree with your ‘to each their own’, like here I am criticizing and trying to find explanations and whatever, but at the end of the day it doesn’t matter why someone might like (or write) a book like this, I vastly prefer CQL!wangxian but people have their own reasons for not doing so.

The ‘problem’ really only lies in, as you said, people not being able to accept that it’s not a healthy relationship. Or claiming it to be perfect lgbt rep.

And because my brain can’t shut up today:

I also can’t stop thinking that the way some people ‘glorify’ the book as due to their age and ‘inexperience’.

When I was a pretty young kid and got into fanfiction, there was nothing but completely OOC!whump to be found in the first two fandoms I was in. And I loved it. It was YEARS later that I thought I might like to read something with the characters being...in character. What I’m trying to say, in different stages and phases of your life you might enjoy different things, for different reasons...and obviously, in that moment, you won’t think about ‘what appeals to me here/should this appeal to me/etc’.

I don’t mean inexperience as ‘sexual inexperience’ here, though of course that could be part of it, but also like, inexperience with this genre (is this the first book like this you read, or did you just read 50 in a row that all had the same unhealthy vibes?), with lgbt people and issues (do you know any lgbt people or is your only image of them either the cute boy you can’t have and don’t want to see with another girl or grown men in full kink gear in front of children during CSD? and also: do you think ‘i like this’ and that’s the end of it or do you notice how many people idolize this objectively unhealthy relationship and won’t allow critique on it...)

I...just wanted to say thanks really.

I just can’t stop rambling apparently and I know I mostly just repeated what you said or what I already said but in longer... I just really do feel very strongly about novel!wangxian and the perception of them and have actually at times felt very personally...worried/affected, by people’s acceptance and love of them and I just... have to try and make sense of it...

#i'll be honest rambling like this is very therapeutic and I'm glad some of you read the last one and send asks and agreed #and it's why i'll (try to) put this in the tags too...i like discussions but seeing ppl NOT going 'it's true love/perfect rep' love that #mdzs #mdzs meta #mxtx critical #i guess

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k347 · 4 years ago

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A little note for all the wonderful people who are taking a moment out of their precious time to visit this little online space I created...

(I felt the need to write this because of some 'not so great' anon asks I've been getting ever since I started here and also because I've witnessed several of both, the good and bad fandom meltdowns in these couple of years)

From My Heart To Yours-

If it isn't clear to you by the kind of things I post or if you are new to this page, let me clarify it in one single sentence. This Is A Stucky+Evanstan Blog. There will always be mostly (if not all) evanstan and stucky content posted here. If you are uncomfortable with the ship, feel free to filter the 'evanstan' / 'rpf'/ stucky tags. I completely understand why it can be bothersome, icky for people, why some of you might disapprove of it. I acknowledge, respect and understand your views, feelings and opinions, I truly do. All I am asking out of you is to not be disrespectful, dissmissive about those of mine. Please understand that you don't have to see the things/content you don't want to on your dash. The block and unfollow buttons, options for filtering tags are there for a reason. Feel free to use them if you are uncomfortable with a blog or person (including me). It'll be taking the high road and bowing out gracefully if you make a habit of using these available options instead of passing around judgements and unnecessarily cruel critisism about people whom you've never even met/ know nothing about.

Personally I adore both of these Fandom Ships. I have for a long time. But it doesn't mean I don't support you if you love/are a part of some other fandom. I don't mean to disrespect or hinder any of the other ships even if they are regarding these same characters. I try and make sure to not intrude on anyone's creative space and expect that the same attitude & decency will be returned.

This blog is my way of letting out, expressing all that love, adoration I feel. I strive to be more creative with my thoughts, my way of expression as a person with each passing day. And being a part of this fandom helps me immensely with that. I've met some amazing people online because of this. Made good friends. It is a very dear thing to me. I have talked to folks who've experienced online hate from unreasonable, anonymous sources, I've also experienced a fair share of it myself. As someone who is a psychology-enthusiast-&-student-for-life, I can assure you the (good/casual/neutral/bad/hateful) things you say to or about people leave their impacts. Not just on them, but on you too. It might seem insignificant or small, irrelevant even; but it does change the way your thoughts work in daily life. Be careful and stop before you train your mind to naturally focus more on the bad things about other people rather than the good ones. So again, I kindly request you to not be mean or hurtful to anyone you meet online (or even in real life, actually.) Offering disrespect and negativity never made anything better in the history of ever.

Lastly I would like to give my two cents about another issue (that I feel can get really toxic if we are not careful) with the fandom culture. I have made no secret of the fact that I am a fan of Sebastian Stan and Chris Evans. Yes, I have and will always post a lot of appreciation posts about them (solo and together), their works and projects, some old tbt moments. You will even find imagines, headcanons, theories, fanfics about them along with the ones about the fictional characters they have played/continue to play.

But that doesn't mean I am going to act delusionally and ignore/ unacknowledge the fact that both of them are their own person. Two actual, real human beings. I don't mean to project any of this content that I am creating on them and their lives. Making anybody uncomfortable is not my intention behind doing this, not at all. I prefer to look at it this way- "This is a world that I've created in my own mind. For fun and entertainment. Sort of like an AU. Parallel Timeline. But please understand that the stories, theories, things I'll post and write on here are pure conjecture, a lot of speculations. Hypothesis and supposition. I don't want to lose the grasp on reality and be drawned in it too much or completely, up to the point at which violation of real people's boundaries starts to become a usual routine and doesn't feel wrong."

I do not agree with the mentality of blaming, hating on people/past partners in their lives for no other apparent reason than the fact that 'they know my favs'. I completely agree that there are actions and things which people need to be held accountable for at times. Yes, you can talk about it with me but please try and remain respectful (if not that, at least be decent enough) toward all the parties involved.

Even though we as fans have invested a lot of our time, creative efforts and emotions in these two men; It does not mean they owe us, or need to explain every part of their personal/professional lives.

Please remember and don't let it be hard for you to accept the fact that these two people are not the exact fanfic versions of themselves that you read about on tumblr, they are not some experminted and perfected, flawless personalities that you've created in your own minds. It is possible for humans to mess up at times. It is only natural. Don't judge people based only on their worst mistakes, or more precisely the negative stuff you read 'online' (which 9/10 times is pure speculation and made up. fake. not facts.) Chris and Seb do not need to cater to every whim and need of the fans, they do not need to make decisions based on what people feel about them online. They can and should do whatever they want to with their lives without having to experience judgement and public scrutiny about every little step taken. Please stop putting celebrities on a pedestal and measuring them up to some impossible, unrealistic standards. If you feel too much devastation, hurt over some action of your 'fav', my advice would be to take a step back. Relax. Distance yourself from the Fandom for a bit. Do not let the 'stanning' consume you, your behaviour, rational thought process and most importantly don't let it ruin your kindness.

I love the analogy that there lives a good and a bad wolf inside every human being. Your reactions, response to things, all of it depends on which wolf you decide to feed and empower at the given moment. Choose kindness. Choose gentler responses. Choose Love over Hatred. Always.

I think the lovely @musette22 (who btw, is one of the most compassionate, talented and creative people I've met here, because of our shared love for these boys 💙) voiced this thing better than I ever could.

My apologies, if the note got too long and too deep for your liking.

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My ask box is always open for anyone and everyone who is interested. Send asks, questions, prompts, requests, suggetions, your ideas, theories anytime you want.

I am always up for conversations and discussions.

Lots of Love,

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navek15 · 4 years ago

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So in-between writing fanfiction, working on my novel, work, the upcoming online semester, keeping the house clean, and getting my ass repeating handed to me in Dark Souls: Remastered and Dark Souls III, my increasing disdain for how terrible, unimaginative, and terribly imaginative some ‘fans’ of particular properties can be. And it’s not just from one particular instance, it’s from several occurrences over the years.

Yesterday, I was watching Maj0r Lee’s video reaction to terrible reviews of Final Fantasy 7: Remake. Side note, I’ve respected ML for not being afraid to speak his mind, no matter how much it goes against the nerd fan hivemind. And one thing that quickly got on his and my nerves about the reviews was how repetitive they were.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qR-1NTCwLr8

“Tetsuya Nomura pulled a Kingdom Hearts and ruined the great story of the original FF7.”

“Nomura and friends turned FF7 into Kingdom Hearts-tier garbage.”

“I was going to give FF7: Remake a ten out of ten until that terribly ending turned it into a zero.”

Tetsuya Nomura this, Kingdom Hearts that, something something the original story was basically the bible. The same points repeated over and over again. It’s like listening to all the same complaints about the Last Jedi. I’d probably take those complaints seriously if it didn’t feel like the same arguments were being copy-pasted over and over because that generates more clicks on YouTube.

If I sound a bit salty, it might be because my favorite video game franchise (BTW, I would never say KH is flawless) is being used as a go-to example of bad writing. This must be how the Call of Duty fans feel all the time.

But there was one particular ‘review’ that pissed me off to no end;

“The more and more I think about it, I feel like Nomura and co. have little to no respect for the fans that have given their work this love, and perhaps even harbour some contempt for them wanting to to see their childhood imagination and memories of the story realised as they deserve to be.

There is a certain arrogance to twisting this world and story to their own whim, as if to say that “this is our world, our characters, what you fans think means nothing to us, we can do what we want with them and you can get fucked if you disagree”.”

You know what this reminds me of? Those laughable Anti-Horikoshi blogs that use the trans flag as their background to supposedly ‘protect’ the female characters of My Hero Academia from their ‘disgusting’ creator. Those lunatics that posted themselves burning their copies of Tokyo Ghoul because the main character banged his female love interest and called Ishida a homophobe. Or the the worst episode of South Park where Trey Parker and Matt Stone showed their disapproval of Kingdom of the Crystal Skull by having Indy getting horrifically sodomized by George Lucas and Steven Spielburg.

This might be hard for some idiots to understand, so let me spell it out for you; YOU DO NOT OWN A STORY OR CHARACTERS JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE A “FAN”!

In the end, writers have their own ideas for how storylines, character progression, and character relationships will turn out. If all creators ever did was pander to the fickle desires of the most rabid ‘fans’, all media would be nothing but self-referential bullshit. Hell, we already example how bad this would be. It’s called ‘How the Last Jedi should’ve ended!’

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rCB8DUGpYQQ

While this video was clearly made to take the piss out of TLJ, it ironically demonstrates my fucking point! This is also why I am 100% certain that we’re never getting a Dark Souls/Bloodborne movie or tv show. Because any interpretation or story that dares to go against the most poorly thought out fan theories will get ripped apart by absolute lunatics with nothing better to do with their time.

And another thing, can we stop treating stories like they’re fucking scripture?! There’s a reason that the ‘Stations of the Canon’ trope is derided by many authors. I can probably name all the Naruto fanfics that aren’t just the same as the original story just with slightly altered dialogue and everyone wearing slightly-different clothing. And I was guilty of this too, until I realized how much more fun it was to go completely off the rails.

Not the mention that this kind of thinking leads to people holding stories to such a ridiculous degree that any sequel or retelling that fails to live up to those unreasonable expectations will get treated like a personal attack and a dumpster fire not even worthy to roast expired marshmallows over.

I’m not saying you should never criticize a story, game or comic for its actual flaws, but don’t try to make it into a sob story like ‘How dare the creator or owners of this story like go about it what they think is the best! These guys are worse than HITLER!’ Hate to break to ya, but no ones goes into a story or long-running franchise to purposely piss off the fans. They’re doing it because they got a story to tell...or to make money. Or both.

And try to come up with your own critiques instead of just copy and pasting the same arguments over and over again.

“Fairy Tail is terrible because all the girls have big tits and skimpy outfits.”

“I’ve heard all that before. Do you have any other complaints?”

“No, but that’s what everyone else is whining about.”

“Well then, piss off and come back when you actually form your own goddamn opinion.”

And I’m not saying that if your problem if a story is the same as someone else’s, then it's invalid. But at least try to say it in a way that doesn’t come across as just copying what the guy before ya said.

One last ramble before I go back to writing and getting attacked by video game monsters; can we stop with all the hyperbole? There are only so many times I can hear the phrase, “This is the worst thing ever” before it loses all meaning. Yes, I’m sure the newest Call of Duty game is worse than Santa Claus Saves the World. That the newest Star Wars movie is worse than A Serbian Film. Or that Black Clover is worse than Eiken.

And that argument is especially soured when the phrase ‘raped my childhood’ eventually rears its ugly head. It was outdated and terribly tasteless when Doug Walker reviewed Batman and Robin, and it’s gotten more disgusting and childish as a phrase over time.

Anyway, that’s my delusional rambling done for the day. Hope you all are safe and comfortable. Have a nice day!

#fandumb #dark souls #dark souls III #my hero academia #tokyo ghoul #star wars: the last jedi #south park #fairy tail #comics #anime #video games #rant

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dreamlikeafangirl · 4 years ago

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My favorite line(s) from each Hamilton song – Part Two

Part One

Wait For It

The whole thing tbh, I mean … freaking masterpiece. But especially this line:

I am the one thing in life I can control, I am inimitable, I am an original

Stay Alive

Chick-a-plao! Stay alive ‘til this horror show is past, we’re gonna fly a lot of flags half-mast raISE A GLASS

Ngl, I this was kind of a stretch haha Stay Alive is not my favorite song

Ten Duel Commandments

This is common place, especially between recruits, most disPUTES DIE AND NO ONE SHOOTS

Again, I just love when just one person sings and then suddenly it’s THE WHOLE ENSEMBLE

Meet Me Inside

meethiminside meethiminside meethiminside meethim meethiminside

Yeah, I love the ensemble. Christopher Jackson (who is also in this song) has the best voice in the whole musical imo, but like, without this ensemble everything really would be only half as great.

That Would Be Enough

Look around, look around, how lucky we are to be alive right now

Reusing this line in such a different context? Amazing. Heartbreaking. And I LOVE Philipa Soo’s delivery.

Guns And Ships

Umm … so I love Daveed Diggs … which means I just wanted to put all the lyrics here and comment ‘flawless’, but like, that’s not how this works haha. I HAVE to choose something specific. That’s the rules I set for myself. So:

Everyone give it up for America’s favorite fighting FrenchMAAAAAAN (Lafayette!)

I love how Burr is everyone’s hype man in this musical lmaooo

I go to France for more funds, and come back with more gUNS and ships and so the balance shifts

I mean. What can I say? Flawless.

History Has Its Eyes On You

And even now I lie awake, knowing history has its eyes on me (whoo-whoo-whoooo-oooo, ohh, ohh)

Have I already mentioned how much I love Christopher Jackson and the ensemble? This is BOTH of them.

Yorktown (The World Turned Upside Down)

‘Til we meet againLET’S GOOOOOO

I … I just love Daveed Diggs, guys! Also the way he just SPRINTS off stage after this lmaooo

We gotta go, gotta get the job done, gotta start a new nation gotta meet my son

LOVE Hamilton’s priorities here

We had a spy on the inside, that’s right, HERCULES MULLIGAN!!!!!!!

Followed by the rest of his amaaaaazing solo. This is the part that makes me want to dance along most. Ugh, Hercules Mulligan is such an underrated character!

The world turned upside down, down, down

GOOSEBUMPS

What Comes Next?

IiiinSAaane

Do you know what’s also insane? The delivery of that line

You’re on your own – awEsOme, wOW

He sounds like literal a four year old here lmao

Dear Theodosia

We’ll give the world to you and you’ll blow us all away, someday, someday

Haha NOt funny @LMM

Phillip, you outshine the morning sun, my son

Honestly, as a non-native English speaker, the fact that ‘sun’ and ‘son’ basically sound the same has always confused the hell out of me, but here it’s used in such a beautiful way! :,)

Laurens Interlude / Tomorrow There’ll Be More Of Us

Which one is the ‘real’ title btw? Can anyone tell me?

Tomorrow there’ll be MOre OF US!

But make it sad.

Non-Stop

Hamilton at the constitutional convention! (clap clap clap clap clap) – I wAs ChoOsen fOr tHe cOnstITUtionAl ConVentiOn!

Just ‘cause it’s funny :)

Dooowhatyoudooo

More ensemble appreciation.

I’ll keep all my plans close to my chest (waitforitwaitforitwait)

Even more ensemble appreciation. (Plus some for Leslie Odom Jr., he KILLED it OMG) Also, for my next pick it’s basically the same comment:

(ooooh) HOw do you write like tomorrow won’t arrive? HOw do you write like you need it to survive?

Aaaand with that, we’re done with the first act! Part 3 (aka act 2.1) can be found here :)

#Jule on Hamilsongs #my stuff #hamilton song rating #(kinda)#hamilton #hamilton movie

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putschki1969 · 5 years ago

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Wakana Winter Special Live Matataki Osaka Live Report

So, I thought I would use the opportunity to write a quick report on my Shinkansen ride back to Tokyo.

Venue: This was my first time attending a concert at a live house so this was a pretty new experience for me. Everything is so small and intimate. Thank God they had seats prepared. For a long time I was worried this would be an all-standing live (which I absolutely would have hated). Umeda Quattro was a pain in the ass to find though. It’s hidden quite well on the 10th floor of a pretty inconspicuous building. And if you have ever been to Umeda, you know it’s a pretty spacious station. The elevator is out of service in the morning so we had to take the stairs to line up for the goods. I am so happy that her Osaka lives were completely sold out, Wakana deserves all of her concerts to be sold out! I really hope the Tokyo venue won’t be too empty, it would make me really sad, especially since it’s her birthday. Btw, I really love how it pays off to be a fan club member these days! I remember back in the Kalafina days being a fan club member never made a difference when it came to your seats. But I have always gotten a good seat with my Botanical Land application. So as always I suggest you get yourself a membership if you are planning to attend any Wakana lives in the future.

Acoustics: The acoustics naturally weren’t the best but I thought they were decent enough. During the Day performance I had a seat in the very first row right in front of Wakana. The sound was well balanced in that area. During the Evening performance I was in the third row all the way on the right side so the sound wasn’t too great there (it wasn’t balanced at all and since the speaker was right next to me, everything was a little too loud for my taste but it was bearable). I thought Wakana’s microphone had just the right volume to suit the instruments. She wasn’t overshadowed by the drums or anything.

Stage production and musicians: There wasn’t any special production, just the musicians behind Wakana. As far as I am concerned they all did a good job, especially the girl on percussion, she was really into it. I didn’t think they could make all her songs work with just piano, percussion and guitar but they managed to make everything sound great. Enjoyed all the arrangements!! Wakana was wearing a gorgeous flowy red dress that was giving off major Christmas vibes. She just wore her own pair of boots, the one we have seen her wear all the time recently. For the encore she put on her Aki no Sakura outfit. Couldn’t help but look at her pretty ankles, I have never seen them this up-close *feels like a perv saying this* There were obviously no cameras so there is zero chance of this being released in case anyone was wondering. I always get so many questions regarding releases :P

Vocals: Personally I thought Wakana was flawless during the very slow ballads but I didn’t enjoy her singing all that much during the high-tempo Kalafina songs (I never really did). Then there are songs like Kinmokusei and Yakusoku no Yoake where I know she is purposefully using a higher pitch but at times she is treading a fine line between sounding lovely and screechy. But overall, she delivered a strong performance despite doing so many songs in one day. I was expecting her voice to get a little weak during the Evening performance but for the most part, she did well. You can tell she has really worked on her stamina.

MCs: Wakana was much more nervous during the day performance. She kept screwing up and saying the wrong thing in the wrong order XD It was utterly adorable. She was constantly holding her water bottle/towel. It happened at night as well but she was much more confident there. During the first MC of the Day performance Wakana noticed me in the first row and pointed out that someone was wearing one of her outfits. Imagine my happiness!! I was over the moon! To have her say this in front of all these people. Waaaaaahhh!!! Senpai noticed me XD At the end of the Evening performance during the final greeting Wakana started crying because she was overwhelmed with feelings. They were happy tears because she was reflecting on all the things that had happened that year. It was a good and productive year for her after all, she can be proud. She tried squeezing her nose to stop crying but it didn’t work. Precious baby *sobs*

Day vs. Evening: In total three songs were different at the Evening performance. She sang Hard Rain instead of Boku no Kokoro no Tokei, snow falling instead of Yasashii Uta and she added a double encore to sing Ato Hitotsu. I am expecting the Tokyo lives to follow a similar - if not the same - pattern. Overall the evening audience was a bit more engaged. Louder clapping, proper singing along and a standing ovation at the end.

Thoughts on various songs: Not gonna go into detail regarding every single song. Eve was most definitely one of the highlights! I originally said that lyrics would seem overbearing with this sort of song but the way they arranged it made it work. Such a gorgeous song!! And Wakana’s vocals are simply outstanding. I remember her saying in an Instagram post that she was struggling while rehearsing this song since the notes were so high. At the time I read that post I was a little confused because she doesn’t actually sing that high in the short studio version. Now it makes sense because this full version with Japanese lyrics has super high parts and oh my God, Wakana sounds amazing. She is using a fuller voice which suits the song much better. Cannot wait to hear this two more times!! *so excited* I really hope this song is re-released soon!! I need to have this on CD!!! Orange was really good but nothing to write home about. I always enjoy Boku no Kokoro no Tokei and this time was no exception, I was a little bummed to have it replaced with Hard Rain during the night performance but hey, at least this way we got more songs. And she did a good job with that too. I actually liked this performance more than the one from the Voice tour. Her singing was nicer and she improvised a bit towards the end. I already mentioned Kinmokusei earlier, I absolutely love this song and generally enjoyed the performance but occasionally Wakana is getting to a range that doesn’t sound pleasant to my ears anymore. I know she is going for a pentatonic sound and maybe I am just not used to that but some notes were just too high for my liking. But it didn’t take away from the performance, it’s one of my favourite songs from her album so I am super happy she decided to sing it. As expected, I liked Yuuyake much more once I saw it performed live but it’s still not among my favourites.

Ahhhh!! The Christmas section! I was hoping she would sing a few Christmas pieces and YAY, she actually did!!! A staff member brought out a small chair and a lyrics stand for Wakana (since all the songs were in English she struggled quite a bit so I am guessing she had some notes to help her with the pronunciation). That Silent Night performance was utterly gorgeous! It started with the pianist using a fancy organ setting. Wakana started slowly by using a very warm and ethereal singing style - almost operatic I would say. I literally broke into tears, it was so unbelievably beautiful!! Wakana needs to release a Christmas cover album RIGHT NOW!!! After the first epic verse the other band members joined in and the song became a bit lighter and joyful, towards the end it was almost a pop-like arrangement, not sure how to explain it. Quite fascinating as a whole, I genuinely enjoyed the different styles used in the song. I didn’t know the second Christmas song at all and Wakana’s Engrish made it very hard to decipher the lyrics. But thankfully I understood the word “eskimos” so I just looked for a Christmas song that had “eskimos” in the lyrics XD Turns out there is only one, The Christmas Song. Not sure why Wakana decided to sing this. Maybe it’s very popular in Japan? No idea! Anyways, it was okay. She sounded lovely. Don’t really care for the song though, there are MUCH better Christmas songs out there that would have suited her better but I am sure she had her reasons. All I Want for Christmas is You on the other hand was PERFECT for Wakana. Such a pleasant surprise. You could tell that she had sung that song many times before, she felt much more comfortable with the English lyrics. And she slayed!! It’s no easy feat to cover a Mariah Carey song but she did it quite brilliantly. This is not a song I usually enjoy but Wakana made me like it!!

Now we get to Kalafina’s section which was surprisingly my least favourite. I will be honest, I didn’t like her Kalafina song choice here at all. The fact that she decided to stick with the original fast arrangements didn’t help either. I wonder why she didn’t go with a slow acoustic arrangement...that would have helped her a lot....Wakana has always had a hard time with these songs, you could tell she was straining her voice even back then during Kalafina days when she had Keiko and Hikaru singing alongside her. All by herself the songs got so much harder. Wakana admitted that these songs were super hard for her but she wanted to perform them for the fans. Seeing everyone’s happy face was worth the struggle according to her. As always the cheers were super loud for the Kalafina songs. Eden was okay, I know the song means a lot to Wakana and she really did her best but meh, she was out of breath a lot. Into the world was definitely my favourite in this section. I actually thought she was gonna sing Natsu no Ringo because the intro sounded just like it but no, it was just a fancy intro that transitioned nicely to the more familiar sound of into the world. She sounded solid during all parts and it’s just such a perfect fit for the journey she is now taking. It was quite moving to have her sing it. Her final “into the world” was amazing!!! Didn’t like ring your bell at all!! Probably my least favourite performance of the live. I never liked her singing style in this song and except for the final “ring your bell and raise your song” I found her singing quite screechy (mostly during the chorus). And for some reason she didn’t sing the bridge which is hands down my favourite part of the song (where she typically uses a more fitting and lovely singing style). Such a shame. (;_;)

Wakana is so much better with her own mid/high-tempo songs. Tsubasa and Kimi Dake no Stage were lots of fun!! Everyone was clapping along! Nothing out of the usual, pretty similar to her Voice performances I would say. But the best was without a doubt Koi wa Itsumo!!! Still cannot believe how much I love this song, it’s so freaking good!! Just wish she would have sung the “baby, baby” parts but since some parts are overlapping with her other lines she obviously couldn’t do it XD At the end she was asking us to sing along to the “haha koi wa haha itsumo haha sekai wo kaeru no” part and eventually we were singing all by ourselves. It was really nice. I am happy the audience participated. Usually it’s hard to get Japanese audiences to engage in something unexpected like that. During the Evening performance everyone had already figured it out so they were much more involved. She ended the main part of her live with Yakusoku no Yoake. Once again we got the gorgeous organ setting and Wakana sang a slightly slowed down version of the intro. It was so much better than the studio version or the performances from the Voice tour. Reminded me a lot of the first verse of Silent Night. The rest of the song was good but a little too high pitched at times.

As for the encore, OMG, Wakana’s solo versions of both Yasashii Uta [Day] as well as snow falling [Night] were PERFECT!! Utterly flawless!!! I am so grateful she sang these two songs, I was really hoping and praying for snow falling!!! Don’t even know what else to say about it. I personally didn’t mind the absence of Keiko and Hikaru, Wakana managed well on her own. Aki no Sakura was slowed down a tiny bit for the live I think...liked it much more like this. Generally it was a very good performance that made me appreciate the song a lot more. Ahhhh, so happy we got Ato Hitotsu as double encore during the Evening performance. It wasn’t as moving as her Voice performance but still super lovely.

Okay, that’s it for me. I had a blast. Not regretting going for all four Wakana lives. Cannot wait for tomorrow.

#kalafina #wakana #report #wakana winter live matataki #long text post

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hellzyeahwebwielingessays · 5 years ago

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The Not-So-Amazing Mary Jane Part 7: MJ blindly trusts Beck (even though she wouldn’t!)

Previous Part

Next Part

Master Post

This post will be the first of maaaaaaany where I’ll be unpacking the problems prevalent in the status quo presented to us in at the end of AMJ #1.

My intent is to thoroughly explore these problems in this and consequent posts before moving onto issue #2. By doing this I (and others so inclined) can try to bear them in mind as prevailing problems with every issue until such as a time as they are addressed.

In future posts like this (at least until we get to AMJ #2) I will try to dispense with the preamble and get right down to business.

But for now I should start by clearly defining what exactly the premise presented in AMJ #1 even is.

The premise as I see it is as follows:

Mary Jane, out of sympathy for him and interest in the project, is making a movie with Mysterio. A Mysterio who has disguised himself as a respected film director and hired former felons and current super villains as part of his crew. He and MJ maintain Beck’s secret from everyone (which includes Peter but we’ll get there in another post).

In this instalment I will be addressing why MJ’s trust of Beck and failure to verify his claims is nonsensical.

As touched on in our coverage of AMJ #1, Mary Jane believes Beck’s sob story and ultimately agrees to work with him in spite of his crimes and the presence of active villains. Williams writes her genuinely sympathetic and interested in the film project, buying what Beck is saying and lacking any suspicion beyond that.

The most we get is MJ (arguably) noticing Beck’s abuse of one his staff and presumably bearing it in mind for future dealings with him.

Now, MJ is great at reading people and is very aware she possesses that skill. Between her upbringing moving around the country, her profession in acting and modelling (which puts many people, in particular young women, in potentially vulnerable positions) and her experience dating and living with a superhero, it’s an essential skill and one she’s honed. You could call it her personal brand of spider-sense.

If MJ’s Spidey sense were registering honesty from someone then it’d be crucial in her decision to ultimately believe them and judge their threat level.

These pages though get muddy because Beck is mixing the truth and deception. Technically everything he is saying is true so MJ would likely be picking that up. But he didn’t actually need MJ to be in the movie so he was lying about that and more poignantly he is omitting the fact this movie plays into Kindred’s wider schemes.

Is MJ’s failure to register deception from Beck a mistake? Is Williams dropping the ball here?

Actually no.

Mary Jane is a good read of people, but she is absolutely not flawless in this regard. There have been times she’s misread Peter and indeed been fooled by other people. Five key examples come to mind and we’re going to be starting with the most debatable ones.

Firstly there was Jason Jerome a fellow actor who offered friendship and support when MJ began working on the soap opera Secret Hospital. Jason was a harassing creep intent upon seducing Mary Jane, regarding her marital status as challenge that’d make his ‘conquest’ all the sweeter. I go into much more detail about Jason’s encounters with MJ in this post.

I will concede that it can definitely be argued that MJ was out of character or emotionally vulnerable during the course of this subplot so it doesn’t necessarily prove anything. Nevertheless, in MJ’s canonical history she was fooled by a fellow (and more experienced) actor than herself.

Secondly there was Aunt May’s death in ASM #400. Aunt May was impersonated by a dying actress who’d been genetically altered to look like and register as her. For around a year everyone (including MJ) believed their beloved May to be dead once more proving how MJ’s ability to read people isn’t flawless. Again though there is a lot of stuff that can be contested with this example, the most significant being that as originally written the intent was that this was the actual Aunt May, not an imposter.

However even accepting the retcon one could argue that due to her pregnancy, May’s miraculous recovery from a coma and the general stress of the Clone Saga up until that point Mary Jane’s ‘Spidey sense’ was not going to be working properly. However, canonically this is once again an example of a fellow (and likely more experienced) actress deceiving MJ.

My other examples don’t have nearly as much leeway.

Perhaps the most significant is Jonathan Caesar, the Parkers’ landlord who was obsessed with ‘owning’ Mary Jane. You can imagine what that would’ve entailed. He abducted MJ and held her prisoner for a little while. The thing is initially MJ found the guy charming and the idea he was a threat never crossed her mind.

Unlike the above two examples there weren’t any obvious extenuating circumstances that I can recall to excuse MJ’s faux pas. She was just genuinely fooled by him.

Then we have her friend Lorraine whom you might recall from part 4 of this essay series. As mentioned there, Lorraine was an old friend of MJ’s who’d developed a cocaine problem. MJ sought to help her and Lorraine seemed willing to be helped. But when MJ left her alone for a little while Lorraine almost immediately snuck out to find her next hit.

Models are not actresses strictly speaking. But to my limited knowledge their profession must involve some degree of adopting a false persona. Even if we were to say otherwise, Lorraine was clearly capable of duping Mary Jane.

Finally, for an extended period of time the Chameleon fooled MJ and most everyone else when he impersonated J. Jonah Jameson in Web #52.

Like Beck, Chameleon made a whole career out of fooling people and Beck could be argued to be even better at it than Chammy.

So the idea that someone could fool MJ is definitely possible in a lot of stories.

But we shouldn’t take MJ’s trust as a sign that she is in the right. It’s so often tempting to side with the protagonist’s POV precisely because they are the protagonist. If MJ trusts Mysterio she must feel he isn’t dangerous and isn’t that bad really right?

But the possibility that she can be wrong is on the table based upon her history and (whilst I personally doubt Williams intended it this way) that is what is happening here big time.

Now I am not suggesting that MJ should second-guess every read of people she makes nor that the above examples should be sore spots in her mind. But collectively they would enshrine to Mary Jane herself that she shouldn’t just presume her immediate reads of people are accurate, and that would go even more so for professional actors.

In this issue MJ hasn’t got any extenuating circumstances to compromise her judgement. She isn’t in the midst of an emotionally turbulent time in her life. She isn’t being blinded my friendship, loneliness or familial love. She also hasn’t had much time to observe or get to know Beck up close and personal, this exchange being the longest amount of time they’ve ever spoken to one another.

But as I spent far too much time pointing out in parts 3-5, MJ is very aware of Mysterio’s skills, his typical tactics and the horrible things he has done. She knows he is a career criminal and a dangerous/nasty one at that. And she knows that he is an incredibly accomplished and experienced manipulator/deceiver/actor, almost definitely more experienced than her self. And this is to say nothing of the times he’s personally hurt her or the people she cares about.

Realistically upon learning of Beck’s involvement she should somehow start to work against him and most definitely not trust him!

Even exempting the personal pain he’s been complicit in visiting upon Mary Jane and/or her loved ones, she knows enough about him to be suspicious.

In knowing his skillset and M.O. Mary Jane should either not trust him at all or at the very least not simply not take everything he says at face value. She would be savvy enough to recognize whatever her ‘radar’ is reading. At best the odds are 50/50 that her radar is off. And those odds exist precisely because making you believe things that aren’t real is the entire conceit of Beck’s alter ego.

But wait, there’s more!

Beck basically admitted to:

Stealing a man’s identity

Wasting over a year of his life working on a project that doesn’t actually exist (in a location notorious for unaccounted for landmines btw)

Using that to con people into giving him their money

Using that money to make a movie which means he’s gambling with their money without their consent and potentially gambling with the public image of the film studio, the crew and the man he’s impersonating if the film gets a bad reception or financially flops

He’s doing all this off the back of what an extremely risky movie to make in the first place. Imagine if an empathetic and unapologetic movie about the life of George Zimmerman came out?

Said movie is a vanity project explicitly about himself

He’s using current super villains on the crew. If you are a current super villain then by definition you are not out on parole, you aren’t reformed and you are still wanted by the law.

And Mary Jane…goes along with this. Lampshading the fact that it’s insane for her to do that doesn’t excuse the extreme mischaracterization of doing that in the first place.

At the very least she should run a check online or with her various contacts in the super hero community to see if he’s actually dying. Remember from MJ’s POV Beck has full on faked his own death at least twice. She has no hard evidence for this whatsoever beyond the word of a man who is notoriously duplicitous.

Now to play Devil’s advocate we could argue that MJ believes Beck is out of jail legally. He might’ve served his time, been let out early for good behaviour or precisely because he is dying. Or perhaps he had legal help that weaselled him out of being locked up.

However this angle of interpretation just doesn’t hold up to scrutiny.

For starters given his very long history of very serious crimes (even excluding the ones MJ is unaware of) it’d be common sense to presume that Beck would be serving time barring extenuating circumstances. Common sense would then lead anybody to try and confirm if any extenuating circumstances exist. This could prove impossible because how accessible records on costumed criminals are to the public is unclear. But anyone with a phone or internet access could at least try.

MJ has far more than mere common sense and she’s got far more than a phone and internet access. And yet there isn’t even a hint that she makes even a lazy attempt at confirming Beck’s story.

Now let’s pretend MJ forgot every single encounter with Mysterio she knows about before Nick Spencer’s run. No faking Aunt May’s death. No helping Doc Ock in ‘Ends of the Earth’. Nothing from ‘Guardian Devil’. None of the stuff we covered in parts 3-5.

Mary Jane would still realistically be fully aware Beck committed a HUGE crime mere months ago that involved the Avengers (plus other heroes) that was also the inciting incident that reconciled her with the love of her life.

This alone should be enough for her to not so quickly or blindly trust Beck! Even if she was unaware of the legal fallout of that event it was still an event that endangered lots of innocent people and heroes. Chiefly it endangered the love of her life! MJ trusts the guy whose actions nearly killed the man she loves most in the world!

Speaking of Peter by the way, he’s a super hero who’s regularly tangled with this guy.*

She has also worked for, is an acquaintance of or personal friends with:

Tony Stark/Iron Man

Riri Williams/Ironheart

The main roster of the Fantastic Four

Several big name members of the Avengers (including Captain America and Jessica Drew)

The Avengers faithful butler Jarvis

Members of a support group comprised of the loved ones of super heroes (see ASM v5 #8-10)

Carlie Cooper, a forensics scientist who has worked for the police

She has also encountered shape shifters, impersonators, clones and body swaps in the last 10 years of her life, so a certain degree of safety precautions would be requisite for her.

Collectively this means MJ would not simply presume Beck is walking free legally and more importantly could and would check up on that. It wouldn’t be hard. She wouldn’t even have to tell Peter if for some reason she was worried about him knowing; we’ll dive a lot more into this in a much later instalment.

Her research would then naturally turn up the fact that Beck clearly escaped from prison. Even if the details of Beck’s trial or consequent legal proceedings (like being paroled or cutting a deal) weren’t public knowledge Mary Jane’s contacts would be able to inform her of what would’ve happened. Thus she’d know Beck was legally declared insane and sent to Ravencroft but not legally released.

Similarly even if the details of Mysterio’s ‘death’ in Ravencroft weren’t publically known MJ would have the means of learning that and thus confirm that Beck had faked his death once again; (see ASM v5 #24-25). This would then open up the possibility to MJ that the body the authorities have belongs to someone else.

From MJ’s point of view, at best that’s macabre and unethical. At worst it could mean Beck caused someone’s death. MJ is clearly aware that Mysterio might be capable of such a thing because she is almost immediately concerned Beck has done something bad to the real Cage McKnight!

Now I’m not saying MJ is going along with Beck even knowing he probably killed his psychiatrist. But what I am saying is that it’s utterly out of character for MJ (or pretty much any character) to not check this stuff!

Maybe Williams will address all this, but reading AMJ #1 it seems far more likely she’s not bothered to consider the implications of the direction she has taken. Or worse, she has but is ignoring them because she wants to tell the story she wants no matter what.

The point is moot though because MJ wouldn’t give Beck the benefit of the doubt in the first place.

There is more to be said regarding MJ’s trust issues in the story, but I think I’ll save that for next time.

*And typically won through a highly unique danger sense that MJ lacks, a sense that mitigates Beck’s abilities.

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#Amazing Mary Jane #mjwatsonedit #Mary Jane Watson Parker #mary jane watson #MJ Watson #Mysterio #Quentin Beck #Peter Parker #spider-man #Leah Williams

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coeurvrai · 5 years ago

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Guess what? I’m back on my bullshit and that means getting through more chapters of this book, no matter how much I don’t like it. I took a break because stuff came up and then I just needed to chill for a few days cause like, otherwise I’m never gonna get through it.

But I’m here now and being here means starting this off again with another Nadya chapter. I am absolutely delighted to find out what this brilliant plan of theirs is gonna be to infiltrate the palace and then assassinate the king. We start off, ofc, with another excerpt from the Codex of the Divine.

There are no ancient records of the goddess of light, Zvonimira. There are whispers, rumors, threads of truth or fiction that say that she is the youngest in the pantheon, but who truly knows how the gods come to be? Like Alena, Zvonimira has never bestowed her powers upon a chosen cleric.

Well, usually they are just ARE or they are born from other gods. Also, I don’t know why we have a goddess of light. Like that’s Fine, nothing inherently wrong or stupid about that, but considering we have a limited pantheon (of 20, if you can’t remember), the fact that “light” doesn’t somehow inherently come under either Alena or Krsnik or even Horz’s domain is just like, okay lmao

Nadya and co. are now making their way to Tranavia, now that Parijahan is in a state to make the trip. Malachiasz mentions that blood magic is a part of daily life and taking it out would be VERY, very bad.

“It builds over time, magic does. Especially blood magic. It’s so accessible. You don’t have to have a true affinity for it to use it in small spells; you just need to know how to channel your own blood through the written conduits. After enough years pass, it becomes routine—fishermen cast spells to keep lines from breaking, bakers cast to keep their bread rising, the like—removing it would fundamentally destroy what has built the country up.”

So, the impression I’m getting is that blood magic is capable of just basically anything and everything. “Magic builds up over time.” There, fixed. Also what does that even mean? How does magic build up? Do you mean your reserves of magic build up over time, so it’s easier to tap into? Do you mean in like the environment, in a sense, that everything is just imbued with blood magic? Also I assume purchasing books or pages must be cheap or very accessible cause otherwise how does anything work?

But what if you can’t access an Arcanist (a person who writes the spells), then what do you do? The mention previously of Malachiasz writing his own spells, and that people normally get pre-written/pre-loaded, but like why? If different occupations need different spells to help along with their job, that’s a lot to rely on a presumably specific sect of people to write them out for you. Also how was blood magic even discovered in the first place? Because the pages are the inherently magical thing, right? The blood just activates it for you to use.

“Sew that into the sleeve of your coat. Cutting the palm of your hand and fingers hurts more than cutting the back. The razor is treated so the cuts won’t scar.”

Treated with what, magic? Also I don’t know enough about biology or self harm to say whether cutting the back of your hand hurts less, or why would you care about scarring? Does a build up of scar tissue mean that it will be harder to cut yourself/draw blood, especially if you keep doing it to the same place?

So along the road to Tranavia, there are shrines placed all over the place and Nadya wants to attend to every single one.

After the third one they passed, Malachiasz stopped to wait for Nadya while the others walked on ahead.

She could feel his gaze on her as she worked. This shrine was dedicated to Vaclav so Nadya was taking extra time to ensure it was spotless when she left it. Vaclav was a darker god, chaotic and strong-willed, and Nadya was careful to stay on his good side.

Vaclav is the god of forests and truth, btw. But like what? We never got that impression from what little we’ve been told so far about him. He blessed some triplets with a Russian, Greek, and Roman name respectively, and Nadya has used his power two whole fucking times. Also what makes him “darker”? Aren’t they all shining beacons of holiness and divinity? The fact that he’s chaotic?

Like she’s used his powers before and there was no mention of Nadya having to do anything special or specific to use them, she used them as brazenly as she uses the rest, whenever she remembers that she is a fucking Cleric with access to divine magic.

Nadya and Malachiasz get into a bit of a tizzy about her stopping to clean them all.

Like he was trying so hard to comprehend her strange, pagan ways but simply couldn’t.

PAGAN?! You might argue that Nadya is referring to herself as Malachiasz would refer to them BUT PAGAN!? ISN’T YOUR RELIGION THE MAIN ONE? ISN’T YOUR RELIGION THE ONLY ONE? HOW IS YOUR RELIGION PAGAN WHEN IT’S THE MAIN FUCKING ONE OF THE WHOLE BLOODY WORLD. SHOULDN’T THE TERM PAGAN BE AS INSULTING AS “HERETIC” OR “ABOMINATION” BECAUSE IT IMPLIES INFERIORITY. TRANAVIA DOESN’T HAVE A FUCKING RELIGION, THEY ARE ATHEIST BY ALL THE WORLDBUILDING WE’VE RECEIVED SO FAR, WHY PAGAN?!

“Having power granted to you, and acknowledging that beings of power exist, isn’t the same as acknowledging that those beings are benevolent or even sentient.”

Sentient? Is Malachiasz impyling that the gods aren’t sentient??? How the fuck does that work then, Malachiasz? Also how is that even relevant? Being benevolent or sentient doesn’t inherently tie into holiness (or power), so I don’t know what the fuck you’re on about. Holiness is to do with things "dedicated to a religious purpose or a god; revered in a religion; perfect or flawless.”

Like of course one doesn’t beget the other, because those aren’t synonymous at all. Anyways, Malachiasz says that Nadya doesn’t have free-will cause she follows what the gods say.

“I absolutely have a choice.”

“Do you?”

“You’re still alive.”

He immediately fell silent.

I chuckled, I admit it. In another book, this would be much funnier but also darker and effective. But as we’ve all learned over this, this doesn’t matter because it’s an empty threat.

“They talk to me, you know,” she said as she used her sleeve to scrub a patch of lichen off the statue. “They all have their own quirks and desires. Some of them talk to me regularly: Marzenya—my patron—Veceslav, Zvonimira. Others only give me magic when I ask. Some regularly deny my requests. They’re not mere concepts.”

I have seen nobody regularly deny your requests, Nadya. All of the gods so far have bended to your requests and prayers of magic, including Zlatek - who apparently doesn’t like you whatsoever - and Alena - who you’ve only prayed to once before and apparently doesn’t give her powers to Clerics. Also Zvonimira hasn’t said jackshit, nor been mentioned since like the first or second chapter. And the other two I GUESS you could claim talk to you regularly, though only by the needs and whims of the plot.

#sarah reads ws #self harm tw

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bellaxcreatura-blog · 6 years ago

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SPOTLIGHT SATURDAY!

Thank the Goddesses!

I’m about 3 months old into the fanfic part of this fandom. Of course I noticed that there was fan art for it but my naive, small-world brain hadn’t considered the the vast and ever-expanding content of my favorite anime/manga/shows/movies/books/andwhateverthefuckelse. So here are my shout outs, darlings. Btw, my words are bad today. I’m hungover and am very, very tired. Plus, it’s pretty busy at work today. Expect nothing witty, or wordy, just sloppy praise.

First goes out to my girl, JacklynnFrost. Her adaptation of what happened pre-Holy War for Nanatsu no Taizai was phenomenal. It was the first chapter fic I read, and lost sleep over, and I’ve been truly impressed with her writing since. She’s also written and incredibly passionate fic, Interpretations that I love. It is so emotional. And she does have trigger warnings at the beginning, so keep an eye out for that. Check out her work. I don’t have the fancy URL’s for any of these, you’re just going to have to look them up. Haha

Lickitysplit has the seemingly easiest time writing I’ve ever seen. Everything is so natural and smooth and genuinely interesting tales. I haven’t read all of her fics at this time, but I’ve got so many subscribed on AO3, I really won’t be able to catch up ever. I also look forward to the Kachacko Zine I’m going to buy when I’m not broke *eye waggle*. Btw, @maybeishouldwait, I’m waiting on that Escalin. You think I forgot. Ha!!

LeMaskadra has such a unique mind for writing that I am addicted to. I think she can make the reader engulfed in the fic regardless of it’s nontraditional structure. Always a fun ride.

I’ve had very little exposure to Galfridus and Androgynous Ink on AO3 but what I have seen has been inviting and super good. I’m excited to dive in. Maybe I should get out of my own head and focus on the catch up on these wonderful HC’s everyone seems to have attached to? I’ll probably do that.

My fics/AU’s aren’t going anywhere.

Nerroart, fuck dude, honestly the best more real-world art that I’ve ever seen and I am super willing to commission (when I have money, that is). The detail and shading on her art is phenomenal. I will always keep a special spot in my heart for her because she drew me Ban with a man-bun and yoga shorts.

Deimos, his animations are flawless and I can’t wait to see where his own manga goes. I’m very excited.

Princessfroslass colorings are truly stunning. I honest to God didn’t know what colorings were until I got into the fandom and realized what color actually did for the panels... I was super impressed with what people came up with and even how they changed it. But this girl’s coloring interpretations were stunning, I mean, I will always remember them.

Twitter shout outs: kirikat, a_gay_disaster, rdtztz, dragonkirisquad, KtgWrites, sabrinasarts, Krbkruinedmylif, KB_Shark

^^ Those are probably my faves right now ^^ But that’s not to say that other’s aren’t incredible.

Listen, there are a ton of you that I just haven’t been exposed to. I am a creature of habit and am really bad at staying in my lane for too damn long. I also feel overwhelmed to work on all of my own fics to try to get my stuff out there so I can... well Idk, know my brain isn’t shit? I really don’t know. It’s just fun. I’ll be taking some time here soon, probably in August to really catch up on everything. Discover all the amazing artists and writers that exist, and that I don’t know about. Thanks for being patient with my dumbass <3 <3 <3

@creators-anonymous

#writers #artists #create #praise #I'm so bad at tags #love yourself #creators anonymous

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jess-the-vampire · 6 years ago

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You are very immature for you age, and it’s a shame that’s such talent is wasted on such hate towards a ship, so I’m just gonna block you, and just for the record, try to be more open, tomstar is dying, ronco will never be canon and I don’t blame you if you don’t like starco, just don’t say stupid nonsense like it’s toxic and shit, cause it’s not, stop been so childish, grow up and tolerate other people’s likes, you are the literal definition of a toxic fan. Peace out and please grow up

funny, because it sounds a lot more here, like you’re just angry someone said something negative about your ship.

Like “Talented wasted on hate to a ship?”, what talent are you talking about? Last i recall i don’t write fanfiction or draw art that hate on the ship. Does literally anyone, and i mean anyone, ever see art of mine that hates on a ship? You seem to be assuming i make things 24/7 that hate on ships, when most of my content isn’t that at all. That is what that sentence means, which doesn’t make sense.

are you talking about me answering questions, or talking about how i feel on the show? because that’s not a talent. That is, what it says it is.

Try to be more open? Coming from the person who just said starco can never have issues. You don’t sound like you want me to be more open, you sound like you don’t want me to criticize your ship.

Heck, you immediately followed this with “Tomstar is dying”,”Tomco will never be canon”.So you don’t seem to be very open yourself, in fact it sounds more like you’re telling me “You can’t think this way”. Because you’re demanding i think “a, starco is perfect and flawless, b. tomstar has to break up no matter what, c. tomco will never happen”.

Like you just hate that i don’t agree with your views.

Like, i’m critical of EVERYTHING, even ships i like. More people just talk about starco or ask me about it. Like i even have issues with tomstar, but that’s mostly because of star.

like, you say it’s fine for me to not like it…but then you say i’m not allowed to talk about why i don’t like it.

“ just don’t say stupid nonsense like it’s toxic and shit, cause it’s not, stop been so childish“’

ah, because it’s childish to talk about your problems with how the show writes a pairing is it? No, it’s childish to throw a temper tantrum because someone didn’t say something positive about your ship, it’s adult to talk about your problem’s with a ships writing and how it negatively affects the rest of the show.

we had-

star spy on marco’s relationship with jackie for months, which she hasn’t told marco about yet

star blatantly ignore her boyfriend for marco for pretty much everything

marco ignore his own girlfriend to spend the rest of the summer on mewni, and not call her aparently

marco not ever talk to his parents and pretty much planned to never go back home

Marco be a complete hypocrite as he attacked tom’s relationship with star…and got away with it?

the world’s most uncomfortable kiss, which star still is hiding from her boyfriend

i shouldn’t have to explain these issues, because the show has blatantly pointed all of these problems out. Some of them even have episodes dedicated to them. But they are there, and they’re in plain sight.

maybe you can let them slide, but i sure can’t. I think it’s awful to treat tom and jackie in these ways, as unimportant and that it’s perfectly fine to treat them like crap because “Starco”. That’s just a load.

that behavoir is not excusable.

this stuff irl ruins friendships, it’s absolutely awful to promise relationships to people or accept their feelings, and then throw them under the bus time after time without a care in the world.

Might i remind anyone that tom did bad things in the past, stuff people STILL crap on him for today, and the show didn’t let him get away for it. Tom apologizes for literally everything now.

But if star also spies on people, or plays with his feelings, or ignores him for marco, or doesn’t tell him about the kiss. Then it doesn’t take much for the fandom to excuse her for it.

Don’t tell me tom can’t do it, but star can, that’s unfitting of the morals this show set up.

But if tom feels insecure because his girlfriend ditches him for marco a lot, something that’s fairly reasonable because that keeps happening in this show, apparently he’s horrible.

Where’s his “He’s just a teen” argument?, i see that all the time for star and marco, where’s it for tom?

Being in love or being a teen didn’t stop the show from teaching tom before, star and marco should not be the exception because they’re a fan favorite ship.

Point of the matter is, when you put a love point in the center of a story, you should not just “Shut up and watch”. Because whether we like it or not, this one happens to affect a lot of the plot.

and it’s hard to ignore that star and marco’s romance, have led to a lot of issues people have with the show. Kicking out characters unfairly, putting aside plots that are frankly more interesting and less predictable, the entire shift to mewni from earth? All of those trial right back to their plot.

if they were written well, i wouldn’t care at all. But it’s entirely unfun to watch marco and star treat their friends like this. It’s awful and very uncomfortable, which then makes star and marco less likable…which then makes them getting together seem less cute…and more…kinda mean-spirited.

if you wanna make us like they getting together, having star be unfaithful to her boyfriend and having marco attack him is not helping.

“ grow up and tolerate other people’s likes, you are the literal definition of a toxic fan. Peace out and please grow up"

I am? I don’t exactly run around and tell people their ship sucks do i? Like, i barely even talk about starco on here, what makes you think i’m not tolerating it? Like being asked how i feel and sharing so is not the same thing as me telling every shipper they suck.

grow up huh? Coming from the guy who sent me hate mail, calling me a “Toxic fan” for just talking about my opinions on the show, and whining about me thinking there are problems with their ship in the writing department?

Friend, not everyone who you don’t like is “Toxic”, that’s not how that works.

Toxic people, are people who tell people what to ship, what to draw, put insults on art, bully, send people after people, and send people hate mail.

You are in no position, to tell me i’m toxic @marco-diaz-starco

btw, the kiss drawing? It was done to be fun, because me and mark like to goof each other, deal with it.

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otterbeesfanficblog · 6 years ago

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Something Different {Markus X Android Reader}

CHAPTER 2: Never Seen You Through My Eyes

A/N: Wow! I’m glad people like this story so far, I really enjoy writing it. I also wanted to know something, do you guys like Aeron so far? I honestly love writing Aeron. Also, just for this story and another story I’m writing (Wink wink), Markus is pretty much going to be RA9 and you will be like his wifey. Like, in Dragon Age terms, You are the Makers Bride. So, for obvious reasons these stories will not follow the canon to a T. And, if you haven’t noticed, a lot of my titles correlate with songs. Whether it be lyrics or the title. Just little thing for ya, I’ll give credit to the rightful people when I get to those chapters, as you can tell THERE'S A LOT. Anyway, ENJOY!!

BTW: This chapter is almost 3x as long as the first chapter because I have no self-control and it’s 2 in the morning

Chapter 1: A Spark Like No Other Chapter 3: The Lonely Chapter 4: City Of The Dead Chapter 5: Pick A Star In The Dark And Follow The Light Chapter 6: What’s Gonna Be Left Of The World If You’re Not In It? Chapter 7: Love and Hate Are Beasts... Chapter 8: She Depends On You Chapter 9: Pictures We’re Living Through For Now Chapter 10: The Precipice Of Change Chapter 11: Raise A Glass To Freedom

Date: Nov 4th, 2038 Time: PM 11:07:38

You had just gotten Aeron to sleep, having finally convinced him you were okay and going over plans you had for tomorrow while he was out of the house.

He had said that if you wanted, you could stay over at Carl’s while you waited for him to come back.

Not wanting to worry him any more than he was, you told him you would try finding Markus while he was out.

You quietly walked out of the house, your footsteps not making a single sound as you had taken your shoes off. You walked through the wet grass of the backyard, going over to the hedge that you and Markus frequently talked to each other over.

You saw Markus, pacing as he stared at his hand. The one you touched just today, the one you had a feeling would be the subject of this talk.

“Markus...”

You didn't want to use your actual voice in fear of making a noise like you were to be caught by someone and punished for not being inside.

Your thirium pump was beating fast as you began to graphically imagine what would happen if you were caught.

You shouldn't be out here, you told yourself.

This isn’t what you were programmed for, Markus shouldn’t be on your mind all the time,

He shouldn’t be the sole reason you smiled.

He shouldn’t be the reason you felt something... He shouldn’t be the reason you want to feel his touch.

Again.

And again...

“Y/N... You came.”

Despite Markus lowering his voice to a whisper, you still jumped at the sound. You looked into Markus’ eyes and for some reason, it was like the world.... disappeared. As if you and Markus were the only living things.

Except for one thing.

You weren’t Alive, you are an android, not a living being.

And yet, as Markus reached over and gently placed his hand on the side of your face, the warm feeling enveloping your face as you closed your eyes and leaned into his touch.

This...

This made you feel alive. So alive, and free, and like nothing you had ever felt. It was as if you could finally see, finally feel what you see and know that it is beautiful.

You felt beautiful, you felt like... a god.

It wasn’t until you felt yourself leaning forward that you finally opened your eyes, only to see Markus inches away from your face, your lips just as close.

Both you and Markus just stared, your hands were interlocked and if not for the hedge, you were certain you two would be chest to chest.

Everything about this screamed perfect to both of you, Markus failed to notice your LED but you noticed his.

It was glowing a mix of sky blue and red, making a lilac purple. Without even meaning to, you looked through his eyes at yourself, seeing that your LED was the same color. The last thing you saw before quickly pulling away from Markus was your own face, filled with fear.

“We shouldn’t do this, Markus.”

It took everything in you not to say this louder, you could feel everything in your body working faster, your hands shook at you stepped further away from the hedge.

Away from Markus.

“But Y/N...”

Markus looked hurt, and for some reason, that made you want to rip your heart out. Becuase, you made him hurt. you were the cause of the sadness on his face.

“You felt it too, Y/N, I know you did.”

“I don’t know what I felt Markus, because we don’t feel.”

You didn’t mean for it, but these words you spoke to him were like punches in the face. Markus knew how you felt, because of what you two did, he just knew.

You were scared, and somehow, he wasn’t. He was... content. He wanted you to understand what he felt at this moment, but he could tell by your face and the blinking blood red of your LED, that maybe...

Maybe you just weren’t ready to feel this feeling.

You watched as Markus looked at you with an unreadable emotion, but somehow, in your mind, you told yourself this was wrong, and that maybe you need to be checked by Kamski or even Cyberlife.

But your heart...

It yearned for Markus’ touch.

“We don’t feel, Markus. We are androids, we aren’t alive. We don’t feel like Carl or Aeron do. We live for the sole purpose of serving humans, it is what we were built for. What you and I were built for, not...”

You looked down at your hands, bringing them over your fast-beating artificial heart, and clutching your clothing. Shaking your head you look up at him.

“Not this... Whatever this is. Markus what if this broke something in our coding-”

“Why does that matter?”

Your mouth immediately closes upon hearing Markus speak, watching as he looks at your shaking form, in his mind, he desperately wished to help you understand.

“Why does it matter what we are supposed to be... Humans say they are supposed to be perfect, that they are supposed to be nice to each other, that they are supposed to follow laws... that doesn’t mean they do.”

Your eyes go wide as he says this, both your mind and heart, fighting to pick apart his words. Mind and heart fighting to use his words on either side.

You wanted to believe his words, but...

“Do you believe what you say, Markus?”

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Date: Nov 5th, 2038 Time: AM 9:41:04

Markus would be lying if he said he wasn’t a little... worried about today. The conversation he and you had last night ended with more questions than answers.

You both knew that what you did was new, whether it was the forbidden fruit of the world was still unclear. All you both knew was that it was something special, and it shouldn’t be shown off to anyone.

Both silently agreeing not to poke too much at the unknown.

For now.

“Y/N? Are you ready to head back?”

You look up at Markus, he had just finished getting paints for Carl.

He had gotten here before you, but he saw you and decided to wait outside the store for you. He told you he was getting paints for Carl and you told him Aeron will be gone pretty much all day for the event tonight, saying you could stay with Carl and Markus until he got back.

You nod to Markus and begin to walk, Aerons new camera lenses neatly placed in a box you were holding.

There was obvious tension between you two and you had a solution, you just didn’t know if you had the courage to say it.

Markus stopped walking and you did too, turning to him you saw him look at you with confusion and slight concern.

“You... want to tell me something?”

You frown your brows but nod, tilting your head to the side.

“Yes, But how did you ... “

“I’m not sure, I just... I felt like you needed to talk to me.”

Looking around, you saw some humans looking at you two so you only nod and put on a blank face, walking again as he followed, both of you continue talking through your minds.

“Maybe it has to do with our connection before... in any case, I can’t help but think I need to apologize for last night. I hope you understand my... concerns for what we experienced. But... the only way to learn from something is to keep doing it... right?”

Markus again stopped, but this time with how you both were blank-faced it looked normal for androids, and he looked at you with his eyes.

“Wait... you’re saying you want to do it again?”

“Last night, we both hoped to find answers, but ended up with more questions... so if you are still willing, we can meet again tonight after the event.”

From the corner of your eye, as you both began to walk again, you saw a slight smirk on his face.

“And here I thought you were... how do humans say it... ‘too chicken’?”

You narrow your eyes at him, him turning to you, a smile on his face as he plays the sound audio of a chicken in your head, making you shove him with your shoulder. He chuckles then a comfortable silence falls as you both walk through the plaza to get to the bus stop.

Unfortunately, the silence didn’t last long as you walked by a group of humans.

Protesters.

You had seen protesters many times, Aeron did take a lot of pictures of you. You were his favorite model, both for the fact that you were flawless in every way, and you were his best friend. Your H/L H/C hair and S/C toned skin made you almost the picture of beauty, a Goddess as Aeron said. And, you were very positive, that if not for the LED on your head, those pictures he had taken of you would be a lot more popular and he would be richer than Carl.

Many of these protesters were simply complaining about being jobless, and not to say this isn’t a problem because of course, it was. But… you had been… damaged a few times around these protesters.

Markus could almost feel your discomfort as he tried to walk in front of your view of the protesters, trying to make you more relaxed. And it worked until one of the protesters walked in front of you two. Markus, despite both of you trying to get past this man, put himself between you and the man. You watched as his LED blinks yellow as yours did too.

“Where the fuck you going, tin cans? Hm?”

Markus looked the man in the eyes, and he could feel the way you stood behind him, he half expected you to actually try to hide behind him, and he would have honestly liked it better if you did. The man before you looked at Markus, then to you and for some reason, his eyes stuck on you.

“Hey guys, check it out, we got one of those tin cans here… looks like it has a girlfriend.”

The group circled you and Markus, and your LED flashed bright red as you looked around at all the people, looking at each face of anger and resentment. You could almost feel Markus trying to… protect you as he stared down at the man, but Markus could feel your stress… your fear…

He didn’t like this feeling he was getting from you.

But he had little time to react as one of the protesters pushes him to the ground, making him drop his paints, and leaving you standing in the middle.

Someone behind you pulled on your clothes, ripping some of the fabric including your android triangle indicating you were android and slamming you to the ground just as they had Markus.

There were two things on your mind as someone put their foot on your back.

One, you were glad that the box of lenses Aeron had ordered was in a protective foam case.

And two, you feared what might happen to Markus.

He seemed to be taking the most of the kicks and insults, but the protesters around you were not gentle. As you were turning your head to get up, one of the protesters slammed their foot down across your cheek, causing your skin to disappear and show the porcelain white of the right side of your face.

An alert appears in your vision, telling you that there was a slight damage on your cheek, it wasn’t enough to spill your blue blood, but it warned you as you made the skin reappear, that the damage would make a scar in your skin.

Markus saw this happen and was quick to try and stand up, only to be pulled up by the man from before. You somehow got to your knees as all the protesters turned their attention to the man holding Markus, and you could do nothing but watch as they got in his face and threatened him and you.

“You ain’t going anywhere. We’re gonna fuck your bitch asses up. We’ll start with her.”

After this was said, you were harshly pull up by your arm that had your blue android band on it, both you and Markus had blood red LEDs as the group of protesters were about to probably break you two.

That was until an officer came along.

“Alright, that’s enough. Leave it alone.”

The protesters holding you let go, the band on your arm was ripped slightly and the triangle on your back had a big, dirty, shoe print on it and was slightly falling off.

The man holding Markus, however, didn’t let go, and all you could do was feed off of Markus’ feeling of calmness and reassurance to you.

“Let us teach these bastards a lesson.”

Markus took a quick glance at you before looking back at the man, the connection you two already had was close, so that look was enough to make your red LED turn yellow.

“You damage them, I’m gonna have to fine you.”

Oh, you had heard that line many times before, with how many protesters Aeron seems to provoke. You had been damaged before, not beyond repair or anything, but enough for Aeron to have a lot of money just from suing people for ‘Damaged Property’

Aeron hated having that happen to you and having to call you ‘property’, but….

That’s how this world was, and you didn’t mind that much.

Markus was let go and you both were allowed to pick up your orders and the officer told you two to run along.

Markus nor you had said a word till you were waiting for the bus, then he looked at you from the corner of his eye before going back to the ‘android blank stare’.

“Are you okay? They messed up your clothes and … your cheek has a scar.”

“I’m fine Markus, I didn’t feel anything.”

“That’s not the point, Y/N, that feeling told me you didn’t want to go past those protesters, but I ignored it.”

The bus showed up as you two got on in the back, crammed into the android placement box and the doors closed beginning on it route again.

“Markus… these …. ‘Feelings’ are new… that could have been anything.”

“No, it was you I know it was you.”

“How?”

“.....”

“It’s over now Markus, we are fine. Let’s just go home.”

*************

Date: Nov 5th, 2038 Time: AM 9:58:04

“Alarm Deactivated. Welcome home, Markus. Welcome, Y/N.”

“Hello, home, nice to see you again.”

Markus smiles down at you and shakes his head.

“You know, you don’t have to greet the house every time you visit.”

You brush some of your hair away from your face, letting Markus help you out of your coat and taking your package to set it down.

“But Markus, I like saying hello to your home.”

Markus shakes his head again, going to the kitchen to make Carl his breakfast. You walked over to the bird cage and opened it up, turning the birds on only to have them fly around you then land on your shoulders.

You didn’t mind at all, as you picked up the paints Markus got with the intent on putting them in Carls studio.

Markus watched as you walked into the studio, little yellow birds chirping away on your shoulders.

Markus knew that whatever you had done last night, looking through each other's eyes and memories, he knew that you were closer. He sensed that you wanted to tell him something, he knew you were uncomfortable with the protesters.

With this in mind, he couldn’t wait to see you tonight after the event to try it again. He was... excited.

Markus made his way up to Carl’s room and woke him up, giving him the rundown of the weather for today and reminding him of the paints he got. While giving Carl his medication, Carl gently put his hand on Markus.

“Hey. What happened to your clothes?”

“Oh, it’s nothing... Just some demonstrators in the street, Carl...”

Carl shook his head.

“What a bunch of idiots... They think they can stop progress by roughing up a few androids?”

Markus looked at Carl with an unreadable expression, but Carl could tell just by Markus’ eyes, he agreed with Carl 100%.

“I hope they didn’t harm you...”

“Oh, no, no... They just pushed us around, Carl. We’re fine.”

Before Markus could get up, Carl stopped him with a frown on his face.

“Us? Was Y/N with you?”

“... Unfortunately, her clothes are ruined and she has a small scar on her cheek, but she’s fine.”

Carl sighed, laying back in his bed more as he looked at Markus.

“Poor girl, from what I hear from Aeron, she’s been targeted a lot lately. Many people don’t like that Aeron is taking pictures of an android and publicly saying how marvelous they are.”

Markus frowned at the mention of you being a target and he understood why you had been so hesitant to approach the protesters in the first place.

“Is she here? Aeron told me he’d be out all day.”

“Yes, she’s downstairs-”

It was then that both Markus and Carl heard the sound of a piano playing, but it wasn’t like your usual slow notes. This was a song, a pretty one at that.

Markus felt his body heat increase as he had a feeling that when you two connected, he also past down some of his programmings to have the ability to play the piano.

“She’s a good girl,” Carl said, watching Markus smile a little at his words and nod.

Carl had a feeling that you two were closer somehow, though both you and Markus denied this saying it’s ‘not in your program’, but Carl knew what he saw.

He may be old, but even the blind could see.

There was an unbreakable bond between you two.

Markus looked back at Carl as he continued what he was saying.

“I’m glad you two are so close. Warms an old man's heart. She’s learned from you Markus, learning from you.”

Markus thought he was going to continue, but after a few more seconds of simply hearing you play, he helped Carl out of his bed and to the bathroom.

Downstairs, one of the birds was on your head and the other was on the pianos screen. You smiled as you played a song that just... felt right.

You were beaming while playing, you somehow felt lighter than ever before. You imagine that your new ability to play was passed to you from Markus and though a part of you found that concerning, most of you was just happy to be able to finally play.

You then noticed Carl and Markus walk in and you stopped playing,the birds flying off as you stand up beside the piano and bowed a little in respects to Carl.

“Good morning Carl.”

“Good morning Y/N, I see Markus taught you well.”

You smile a bit, looking as Markus opens the dining tin reveling Carl’s breakfast. Markus looks at you with the same thought.

“You could say that, yes. I hope you don’t mind me staying until Aeron gets home, he said that I should come here when I finished picking up-”

“You don’t need to explain, Y/N.”

Carl cut you off of your rant, smiling over at you.

“You are always welcome here, Y/N.”

“Thank you, Carl.”

Markus began setting up Carl’s food and such, and before Carl stared he turned to Markus.

“Why don’t you find something to do while I finish my breakfast?”

“Sure. Okay, Carl.”

You met Markus at the bookshelf, and almost at the same time you two both grabbed a book. You happened to grab the Shakespear book while Markus grabbed Keats’ Odes, then you both began to read. Somehow, you knew what the other was feeling while reading.

It was... strange yet it felt... good.

“What are you two reading?”

You two hadn’t noticed Carl roll over to you both, you and Markus look at each other, Markus giving you the lead to start.

“Uh, I’m reading Macbeth!”

Carl nods with a smile.

“So, what do you think?”

You look over at Markus first, seeing him nod for you to answer you turn back to Carl.

“Human emotions are... intriguing. Though, I can’t say that I truly understand them.”

Your voice got lower as you finished your thought, your body heated up after saying this. You probably sounded like a fool to Carl and Markus, right?

“Humans can’t understand them either. They rule our lives and we have no idea why they make us feel like beggars or Kings. Life without emotions wouldn’t be worth living.”

For some reason, this struck your artificial heart hard. You don’t know why but, his words made you reel back.

Your brain couldn’t understand.

Your heart could understand every word.

Markus could feel you thinking about his words very hard, as Carl turned his attention to Markus himself.

“What about you Markus, what are you reading?”

“Keats’ Odes, it’s one of the books you recommended.”

“And, what do you think?”

Markus took a glance at you before looking back at Carl, sighing before voicing his own opinion.

“Well, there’s a lot of sadness in his poems.”

Carl hums and nods.

“Keats was in love... There’s nothing like love to make a man feel miserable.”

Markus looked back at you, but you were looking at the floor, your LED flashing yellow showing you were in deep thought. Markus didn’t understand what he was feeling when he looked at you but, all he knew was that...

It was perfect, just like you.

“One day, I won’t be here to take care of you anymore.”

This made both you and Markus stand up straighter, LEDs showing yellow as you both listened to him.

“You’ll have to protect yourself, make your choices, decide who you are and wanna become...”

You frown as you feel Markus’ temperature drop, you don’t know why you could feel this, but you didn’t care. Markus frowned at Carl’s next words.

“This world doesn’t like those who are different, Markus, Y/N. Don’t let anyone tell you who you should be.”

You feel something in your chest, as if your thirium pump and skipped beats, you feel the little birds you had yet to put in their cage land on your shoulders. Carl spoke again.

“Let’s all go to the studio.”

Markus helps wheel Carl into the studio and you follow behind, one of the birds, who you have just named Ainsley, landed on your open palm as Lux, the other bird, nestled into the nape of your neck.

You walked over to the window as Markus watched Carl get into his little lift to paint.

“Let’s see where we left off... Remove the sheet.”

You shyly began to watch Carl paint as Markus cleaned up the studio, you would offer your help to Markus, but you were far too focused on the cool colored painting.

Because of your programming, you were always ready to analyze and learn new things, but the only thing you had ever really been introduced to was Art of all kinds.

Carl with his paint’s and philosophies, Aeron with his photos and nature obsession, and Markus...

Markus... he had taught you things about being a caretaker, about piano, about feeling about... ??? love???

You blink many times and twitch, then go back to watching Carl paint, not really remembering what you were previously thinking about.

Jolting, you move out of the way of Carl as he lowered himself, Ainsley and Lux are now both in your cupped hands chirping away as Markus walks up behind you, ready for any request Carl had.

You and Markus now stood side by side, perhaps closer than you both really realize, and Carl wheels back as all of you look at his painting.

“So... What’s your verdict, you two?”

You were a bit surprised Carl asked you as well, Markus you understood as he had been made with the intention of taking care of an artist so he would have some insight, you, however, taken back. So, you let Markus go first.

“Yes, there is something about it. Something I can’t... quite define. I guess I like it.”

“Hm. And you Y/N?”

“I... I agree with Markus, I like it.”

Gently running your thumbs over the heads of Ainsley and Lux, you feel your face heat up over being caught off guard by a simple, or what seemed to be a simple, question.

“The truth is I have nothing left to say anymore... Each day that goes by brings me closer to the end... I’m just an old man clinging to his brushes...”

You look down at the two tweeting birds in your hands, trying not to think about what will happen to Markus if.... when Carl dies.

“Carl...”

Markus himself was at a loss for words, looking for anything to get Carl’s mind of such dark thoughts.

Luckily, Carl was quick to change the subject.

“But enough about me... Let's see if you have any talent!”

Carl looked at Markus with a smile, and in turn, you smiled at Markus, who looked slightly confused.

“Give it a try. Try painting something.”

“Paint? But, what I... Painting what?”

“Anything you want!”

Carl pointed to the canvas not too far from you all, telling him to give it a try. You smile and walk over to the desk, leaning on the wall next to it, Ainsley flying on your head again and Lux goes to the shoulder not leaning on the wall.

Markus smiles widely at the Canvas, then to you, then turns to Carl with the same wide smile. Carl hands Markus over his paint pallet and Markus walks over to the blank canvas, taking a brush, looking around, then starting to paint.

You watched Markus’ movements, they were... stiff and planned. Normally this would have evaded your focus but, as he finished up his painting, you can see why you were off-put.

It was the paint of the statue model in front of the canvas, and it was like he simply took a picture of it a covered over it with paint.

You were made with creativity. Kamski made you to be able to see the creative things in the world to help grow Aeron as a photographer, so seeing this made senses.

“That is a perfect copy,” Carl noted, rolling over to Markus. “Of reality. But paint is not about replicating the world, it’s about interpreting it, improving on it, showing something you see.”

Ainsley, getting antsy, lands on your index finger as you held up your left hand for him to land on, turning over your right hand as Lux had the same Idea. You quietly hushed them so you could listen to Carl.

“Carl, I don’t... think I can do that. It’s not in my program... I...”

Markus looked at him in confusion, you were just as puzzled by Carl’s words. Carl points to another white canvas.

“Go on, go try, grab that canvas.”

So, Markus quickly switches the canvases, and after doing so, Carl speaks up again.

“Do something for me, close your eyes. Close your eyes. Trust me.”

Markus looks over at you as you lean on the desk this time, moving right next to him, Ainsley and Lux still perched on your hands as you smile and nod at Markus, then turning to Ainsley and nudging him with your nose.

Markus then looks back at the canvas, not before saving the memory of you with the tiny bird, then slowly closes his eyes.

“Try to imagine something that doesn’t exist. Something you’ve never seen.”

Carl says, encouragingly.

“Now concentrate, on how it makes you feel... and let your hand drift across the canvas.”

You watch as Markus’ LED blinks yellow as he thinks, slowing bringing his hands up to the canvas Markus pauses.

On how it makes you feel...

Markus couldn’t deny it, you were the only thing on his mind at the moment and if that's all he could think about, then that's what he will paint. As Markus began painting, you got lost in your own thoughts about him.

You were wondering what will happen if you two keep doing this... connecting thing. Would it truly damage your software? Would it change your program or even corrupt it?

What if you started mixing up memories? What if you traded programs in general?

All these thoughts came to a halt as you looked up as Markus finished painting.

It was a woman, a beautiful woman with S/C and H/L H/C hair, holding two little birds.

It was you.

The LED on your head was the bright sky blue it normally is, and the way you were holding the birds in the picture was so softly, like a mother cradling a child. The birds in this picture were real, however, and the look on your face...

I was so... soft, and warm, calm and with E/C eyes half closed and a gentle smile over your face.

You looked... happy. In love and beautiful.

Like a goddess.

For a moment everyone was speechless until Carl broke it.

“Oh, my God.”

“Markus...” Your voice was so soft and quiet, but like always, he heard it and looked at you with a soft smile.

Suddenly the door to the studio opened, causing the birds to quickly fly out of the room in fear. A young man stumbled in, and you, instinctively, walk behind Markus who, instinctively, walks in front of you.

You had never seen this young man before, and the way he walked in and the way his eyes and face were sunken in, you could tell he was not healthy by any means.

“Hey, Dad.”

“Leo...”

“So that’s his name...”

You didn’t mean to but it seemed you said this to Markus in your head. Markus didn’t respond however as he watched Leo’s every move.

“I didn’t hear you come in...”

“Ah, I was in the neighborhood... I thought I’d stop by...”

The way Leo twitched and fidgeted,, it made you scan him, seeing he had a type of drug inside him. From the way he was acting you could tell, this wasn’t supposed to be in his blood.

Makus could feel you behind him, watching this scene unfold with watchful and curious eyes. He knew you had many questions, but he didn’t want to leave Carl with Leo just so he could chat with you in your heads.

“It’s been a while, right?”

“You all right? You don’t look so good.”

Markus moves to touch your hand for a brief moment, telling you everything will be fine. You couldn’t help but touch the scar on your right cheek, hoping this wouldn’t go as bad as you felt it would. Leo looks at you and Markus for a moment then turns back to his father.

“Oh, yeah. yeah, I'm fine... Hey, listen, uh... I need some cash, Dad.”

“Again? What happened to the money I just gave you?”

“Uh well, it just goes, you know?” Leo laughs, body jolting every now an then.

Carl nod with a brief ‘laugh’.

“Yeah... Yeah, you’re on it again, aren’t you?”

Markus, while keeping his eyes on the scene playing out, gently puts an arm out to put the pallet on the desk, and you move out from behind him, despite him physically trying to keep you behind him.

Leo loses the smile and immediately shakes his head.

“No, no, no, I swear it’s not that...”

“No. Don’t lie to me, Leo.”

“What difference does it make? I just need some cash, that’s all!”

Leo’s sudden outburst made you jump slightly into Markus, who put his hands on your arms to steady you, he watched your LED go from blue to yellow quickly, then at Markus’ touch, it slowly goes back to blue.

“Sorry...” Carl says sternly. “the answer's no.”

“What? Why?”

“You know why.”

Leo’s head then snaps to Markus and you, Markus remand strong in his appearance but your LED gave away your stress at this movement.

“Yeah, yeah... I think I do know why.” Leo bitterly laughs. “You’d rather take care of your plastic toys here than your own son, ah?

“Tell me, dad, what do they have that I don't?”

Leo is now in front of you both, Markus was unmoved by this approach, but it was obvious to Leo that you were scared. That made Markus stand even taller, showing his strength.

“It’s smarter?” Leo sneered in Markus’ face. “More obedient? Not like me, right?” He got in your face for that one, making you flinch with your eyes.

“But you know what? These things are not your children.”

“THEY ARE FUCKING MACHINES!”

Leo then pushes you and Markus back harshly, causing you to run into the desk and Markus to almost run into his painting. Your stress level was super high and both and Markus dawned bright red LEDs, only Markus was able to calm enough for it to be yellow again. But luckily Carl stepped in.

“Leo, that’s enough!”

Leo turned harshly to his father, leaving Markus a chance to give a quick look to you.

“Enough.”

“You don’t care about anything except yourself and your goddamn paintings.”

Leo hissed at his father, glaring at the picture of you.

“You’ve never loved anyone. You’ve never loved me, Dad...”

Leo began to walk out of the studio.

“You never loved me.”

You all watch as he stomps out of the room, the silence hung int the air as you all took a moment. Carl sighed and leaned forward in his chair, glancing over at you two for a moment.

“... Are you two okay?”

You both nod, your LEDs slowly going back to blue, then your LED flashes yellow as you blink, a message appearing in your vision.

House alarm deactivated. Aeron Raynott has come home.

Task Stay with Carl Completed.

New Task Updated.

Return Home With Aeron’s New Order.

“It appears Aeron has just arrived home, if you don’t need my assistance, I must go home.”

Carl nods and waves you off.

“Markus, escort her to the door for me.”

“Of course, Carl.”

You and Markus leave Carl in the studio and you both walk to the front walkway, putting back on your ruined jacket, Markus hands you your package, but not before stopping you one last time.

“Tonight, after everyone is asleep?”

You nod, begin to walk out the door, before stopping, but not turning when you spoke.

“Be careful tonight though, Markus... I have a bad feeling.”

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